This is the beginning of SUNDAY SOLILOQUIES.

For the next few Sundays, I’ll post a video and a blog post about whatever is on my mind related to diabetes.

Today, I want to talk about micro diabetes burnout. You’re probably wondering, what’s that. Keep reading and you’ll see.

I woke up this morning at 5am, first thing on my mind was diabetes. I went to bed last night and the last thing on my mind was diabetes. Right now, I don’t want to be a pancreas. I don’t want to think for my pancreas. I don’t want to calculate carbs and insulin ratios. I don’t want to do anything but go on about my day as if I didn’t have diabetes.

Yes, this is a rant.

I want to enjoy this warm Sunday by sitting underneath the cool shade with a glass of sweet tea or freshly made lemonade and not have to think about diabetes. I don’t want to check my fasting blood sugar and take a ride on an emotional roller-coaster of feeling wonderful if it’s a number I’m proud of or feeling horrible if it’s a number I don’t want to see.

But, I have to look. I have to check. And so,

My rant is over.

This is what micro diabetes burnout looks like. I’m going to log off, check my blood sugar, calculate my breakfast, and get back to doing the job of a pancreas as imperfectly as a human can do it.

I don’t get a day off, but these moments of micro diabetes burnout are a part of my life’s balance.

How’s your Sunday?