May 14 2015

DBlog Week Day 4–Changes

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Today’s topic: What I would most like to see change about diabetes.

That’s an easy one for me. I would like for diabetes management to be more affordable. I was diagnosed while living in the United States and over the past four years I have had the privilege to benefit from access to diabetes care in two other countries and the difference in shameful.

In France, insulin, oral meds, injectables, glucose strips are reimbursed at 100%. There is no cost for needles and lancets.

In the United Arab Emirates where I lived for a year as a Fulbright Scholar, I paid $0.00 for my diabetes related medications. I will repeat that…I didn’t pay ONE SINGLE DIME for my diabetes medications. My visits to the Endo were only $13 bucks, a big difference from the $70 that I was paying in North Carolina with Blue Cross and Blue Shield’s premium healthcare plan.

I can’t tell you how many times I worried, cried, paid bills late or not at all just to come up with the $300 a month (an average) for diabetes supplies.

So, I think we have a serious problem in the USA. It’s as if we are the last to realize that diabetes is a growing epidemic and without proper management the death toll rises.

When I walked into a pharmacy and saw THE EXACT SAME glucose strips that cost me $79.00 at Walgreens or CVS (for 50) were priced for the equivalent of $ 21.51; I nearly cried. Just thinking about all the times I skipped testing after a meal to make 50 strips last a month made me sad. Why are diabetes supplies so expensive in the USA? Aren’t “they” getting enough from us already?

I can’t express the totality of how it feels to NOT have the financial worry on top the other worries that come with diabetes management–it is a feeling that we all should experience. Not just once, but forever.


I would rapidly change the cost of management so that we can focus on LIVING our lives free from worries of debt or financial bondage.


May 12 2015

DBlog Week Day 2–What I Keep to Myself

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Today’s topic is very interesting because if I tell you what I don’t tell you, then I’m telling you. LOL

However, in my most recent interview by Health Central that went live a few weeks ago (see it here) the thing that I’ve been keeping to myself is now public.

Pregnancy and Diabetes. I read, with MUCH appreciation, Kim’s and Ginger’s blogs and posts about their pregnancies and thought that I would follow suit. However, very early on I decided that being pregnant was an intimate experience for me that I wouldn’t tell you until after it was over. I wanted to savor every moment and share with only those I communicate with either via phone or text. I even tagged the slogan, “My Pregnancy is NOT for social media consumption.”

I haven’t talked about the challenge of being back on insulin and how with each new week the increases in the baby’s size foreshadows the need for more insulin. This means that sometimes I get it wrong and sometimes those errors have sent me into an emotional low (when the reading was high) or I found myself in “hypo land” too often. Nearly fainting, heat flashes, pounding heart, and worried about my baby. 


It’s been too emotional, too private, too present to talk about now. When it’s over, I will reflect on it and share. But I can say this… Every woman who manages pregnancy and diabetes is a very special superwoman!

May 11 2015

DBlog Week Day 1–I Can

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So, today is the kick off of the 6th annual DBlog Week and today’s topic is “I CAN…”

When I think of the I CAN theme, I think about my ability to integrate diabetes management into my life rather than have diabetes management take over my life. It’s been 4 years since I was diagnosed and for the first year or so, I was CONSUMED with managing hourly glucose checks, hourly readings, hourly injections, then twice daily injections, meal prep, carb counting, doctor visits, and it was simply put…just too much to deal with. I quickly understood why some people just give up altogether or burn out frequently. Day after day, however, I woke to try again.

Even though managing diabetes clouded my mind, confiscated my thoughts, and caused me to have days filled of worry; I honestly didn’t see how I would have a life after diagnosis.

In time, however, I realized that

I CAN manage diabetes and still have a life.

I CAN manage diabetes and not be overwhelmed by it.

I CAN and I’m so thankful that I am able to integrate managing diabetes into my life without it taking over my life.

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Apr 28 2015

Health Central Interview

This is a link to the video interview conducted by Health Central

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Check it out


Feb 15 2015

Four Years and Still Counting…

Today marks four years since I was diagnosed with diabetes.

I’m still here, still counting and living my life diagnosed not defeated.

Each of my diaversaries are special. When I reflect on where I am now, I know that I am just where I need to be, even though I am not where I want to be in every aspect of my life.

Over the past four years I’ve learned that living and I don’t mean simply waking up in the morning and going to bed at night, I mean LIVING life is possible even though I need accommodations and I am reminded multiple times a day that my pancreas is not working properly.

Managing diabetes is no easy task and it does get the better of me some days, but overall, I am LIVING. I am making everyday count.


Dec 02 2014

There is No Cure and God is Still God

There is no cure for diabetes… and yet, God is STILL God.

I live with a bodily dysfunction for which there is no cure.

There is no cure.

There is no cure.

I live with a broken pancreas and prayer hasn’t fixed it.

I accept it.

I accept it.

I accept it just as I accept the crucifixion.

Just as I accept there is no cure for HIV/AIDS, MS, Sickle Cell, or Cancer.

There is no cure for diabetes… and yet, God is STILL God.

Accepting this truth is not easy for some and it’s almost impossible for others,

but accepting the truth has strengthen me.

Because I know now more than I ever have that faith without works is dead.

I have the faith that God will keep me as healthy as I can be with a broken pancreas, and that’s pretty healthy.

if I do the work: eat right, on time, and exercise.

If I don’t do the work, I will die.

I have the power to do the work, I have the power to control, I have the power to manage.

There is no cure for diabetes… and yet, God is Still God.

It doesn’t have to be either I believe in God and reject that there is no cure

or I accept there is no cure and lose belief in God.

These things are not opposites.

There is no cure for diabetes… and yet, God is still God.


Nov 02 2014

What Diabetes Awareness Month Means to Me

It’s that time of year again…November. November is diabetes awareness month

Today’s Blog Post: What Does Diabetes Awareness Month Mean to Me?

This month is special to me because I feel united with others. Because diabetes is such an individual experience I spend most of my time feeling alone. I’m often the loan diabetic in the room or the lone “diabetic that prioritizes management” and because of that I enjoy embracing all that November has to offer. The diabetes walks, the stories shared by others, the educational seminars, the concern…in short, the attention.  Finally, the seriousness of diabetes gets its fair shot at getting everyone’s attention.


I enjoy talking about diabetes with others and during the month of November I get to do that more often.


Oct 11 2014

Getting Ready for the Big Blue Test!

I am going to do the Big Blue Test this year and my goal is to do it EVERYDAY!!!

If you’re diabetic, please join me and HUNDREDS of other diabetics who will test their glucose, workout for at least 14 minutes, then test their glucose again, and log their results. If you’re not diabetic, please support me and others by giving us encouragement. Diabetes is a 24/7 chronic illness and sometimes we get burnt out with thinking like a pancreas. Your support is appreciated.

As an inspiration, I did the Big Blue test this morning after waking up to an abnormally high reading and here are my results.


I woke up 177 (should be less than 130)

I went for a brisk vigorous walk for 30 minutes

I tested again and I was 101


I am so encouraged!!!! Exercise is just so darn awesome! If an apple nature’s candy, exercise is nature’s medicine.

For more information about the Big Blue Test, please click the logo. For every person that logs their glucose readings from Oct 20th – Nov 19th, a $1 will be donated. 

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Sep 10 2014

Diabetes Blues

I came into 2014 with the diabetes blues. It gets us all at some point. I’ve worked so very hard to get myself on a routine, to keep my glucose levels low, but nothing I was doing was working any more.

While others had warned me about Diabetes Burn Out, I hadn’t expected it to last so long. But it has.

I am, however, working my way out the funk.

One meal at a time.

One trip to the gym at a time.

One dosage of Metformin at a time.

Because I am determined to be the master of my fate.

I am determined to keep on fighting.

I see where those who don’t work themselves out of the funk end up and they are my inspiration.

Every person who has died too soon,

gone blind too soon,

lost a limb too soon

are my inspiration to get back in the game.

To not stay down when I’m living the Diabetes Blues.


May 16 2014

We Had A Good Thing (My 1st Poem About Diabetes)

Although I’ve been writing poems since I was 12 years old, this is my first poem about diabetes.

Leave a comment and tell me what you think about it–I put my heart and soul into it.

If you want the link, it’s

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